These last couple of weeks were going to be "the" week. You know the one. The one in which determination and resolve set in to really, truly accomplish something you long to do.
For me, it's wanting to get up early and spend time with the Lord. Rising before the sun is up, alarms going off telling it's time to get ready for school and work, demands and responsibilities of the day are still waiting to unfold, and all is silent and still.
In all honesty, I am really struggling to make it happen. I feel like it's this constant struggle of wanting to, but when the early morning comes, laziness or selfishness always wins.
As my day continues, I do have times of prayer, reading Scripture, or working on a Bible study. It's just that I know deep in my soul, that I am "fitting" this time in instead of giving Him my best- the time He deserves and the time my soul needs.
While I know that He is not a taskmaster, and one that demands a certain time of the day in which I give to Him, I do know that He longs for the sweet fellowship with me even more than I do with Him.
I can be my own worst enemy and easily let guilt have it's way. This isn't the way that He wants me to live, I know that. It's just why do I struggle so?
Maybe it's about establishing steps of obedience that require action on my part, knowing that my heart will follow.
My word for the year is DISCIPLINE and this is just one area in particular that I desperately want to see fruit in.
My heart is stirring and I believe that He is showing me how to move forward. How thankful I am once again for His grace and guidance. Most of all, that He loves me still.
"Let my love enfold you in the radiance of My Glory. Sit still in the Light of my Presence, and receive My Peace. These quiet moments with Me transcend time, accomplishing far more than you can imagine. Bring Me the sacrifice of your time, and watch to see how abundantly I bless you and your loved ones."
I am really struggling, too Christy, but thankfully His mercies are new every morning!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post...and I'm loving your new header...ok, it's been a while since I visited,but it's beautiful!
Suzanne
Thank you lord for your mercy.Beautiful post, and we should all strive to have a closer relationship with him. Thank you for making me realize this morning that the only thing that should matter this day is him. I needed to read this.
ReplyDeleteYour post today gently reminded me of Pauls words in Romans about not doing what I ought to do..but doing what I know I shouldn't do.
ReplyDeleteI'm SO thankful that God knows/sees our hearts....he truly does....and his loving grace is so patient with us.
Yet I know that as we seek him..we will find him and he will give you the desire of your heart to be disciplined....in all that you do.
<3 ya.
Kim~
I think you "hit the nail on the head" with this post! So many of us struggle with the same things...Praying God will continue to guide you...
ReplyDeleteI am right there with you! I lie in bed sometimes after the alarm goes off...thinking, I need to get up, I have to get up, why don't I just get up! He does bless us though when we make time for Him!
ReplyDeleteHi Christy! I love a new study I'm doing called Live A Praying Life. I too struggle with the timing of my time with the Lord. And I struggle with waking to have my time with Him, getting myself and my kiddos ready and out the door by 7am. But as I wrestle with the timing of that, I was reminded in the study that the Holy Spirit is in us and with groans is always in prayer to our Father. So it isn't that we start/stop praying or that we make time to do that... it is a continual conversation. That reminder has helped me to communicate with Him throughout my days. I pray that the Lord will wake you for your time with Him and that you will be richly blessed by it.
ReplyDeleteThis is such Truth...making my best time for Him. It is something that I'm praying about and really trying to do because it's what He deserves...to be Glorified. Love your word for the year.
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